How can I help?

I live in Des Moines. I came to this place from Texas years ago with fuck all to my name, fleeing people who wanted to kill me, alone in my car, just because I had the nerve to start HRT in public. I’m a conspicuous person, practically impossible to miss, and suddenly having tits didn’t help.

I can’t stand what’s happening to my country and my city. I couldn’t stand it in 2011 so I camped in a park in New York with a bunch of punks and had a blast until the riot police showed up.

Okay you see the thing is, it’s 15 years later and nowadays I have a very bad back and im one slip or fall away from permanent paralysis. My partner and her wife depend on me: I take care of the home and the disabled partner and the animals so one can work full time. When I am arrested in a protest I am afraid SPD will paralyze me forever by twisting my spine or forcing me into a position, and then throw me in jail with men for trying to protect my rights or the rights of others. I’m absolutely pants shitting terrified to go out to protest because of this.

That and I’m autistic and can’t read these situations the best. Seemed like everyone else knew before me that OWS was getting violent and then suddenly I am in the middle of a bunch of violence holding a basket of flowers and ducking for cover.

I guess this is a long fucking way of asking, as a cowardly fool who’s almost lost her ability to walk, how can I help? What can I do that isn’t throwing my body in front of armed men who really want to use me as an example?