Moved here, now moving back. Not sure what I’m doing.

Need help. Mentally broken. Former friend helped me move up here to be safer as a trans woman and my experience of him was extremely abusive to me for a year and it ruined my experience. I failed to make friends with other trans folk and feel extremely isolated out here. Now I don’t want to go outside or hang out with anyone unless it’s just go get groceries or see my doctor, and I’m dealing with panic attacks on the regular. I’m planning on moving back to Los Angeles to be around family and old friends who helped me come out before i moved up here. Despite it being marginally less safe and harder to get around without a car, the familiarity and homeliness makes me feel less anxious.

Am I making the right choice? Or am I letting my trauma ruin something good? I have no idea what I’m doing and I’m genuinely terrified of everything right now.